I remember asking my mom how long would it be before I got out of high-school and how long would it be until I finished school and many more “how long until questions”. She would tell me, and then tell me not to be in such a big hurry. My mind was saying, “sure mom”, the entire time she’d be talking. That was like telling the wind not to blow. “You will see when you get older just how fast time will go by.” You know she was right.
One year barely gets going before another one is here. My babies have babies, who have babies. I know that can’t be possible, because I’m not old enough to be a great-grandmother. I think I’m 49, but maybe I’m 62. Those years which keep running over each other getting here, have really messed up my mind. Maybe that’s a good thing and I won’t realize that my world has changed.
Time marching on is a double-edged sword. I have watched my family grow and prosper, as well as myself, but I have also watched some of my family leave this world. They are in a better place, but I’m selfish and want them here with me. I have watched familiar things disappear around me. I hate it that they are rebuilding all the bridges around my childhood home. I will miss those one lane bridges with the wood runners going over. The bridges will be a lot safer for those coming up, but people(especially new drivers) won’t feel the thrill I did when I drove across, praying I wouldn’t fall off into the creek if I ran off those boards. They say change is good and I suppose it is. I now know how my grandparents and parents must have felt as their world changed around them.
That is my New Year ramblings. I’m going to eat my black-eyed peas and thank God for the wonderful life I have. I have no control over time or changes, so I guess I’ll just do what I do every year and go with the flow. With love from my family and friends and lots of help from God, I will survive.
I wish each of you a Happy, Prosperous, Healthy New Year. Turn up your speakers and listen to this one man choir sing Old Lang Syne as we start this new year and leave 2011 behind us.